Long time .. No Chat!!!

OMG!!!  Has it really been that long since I've posted??? Sorry all my cyberspace friends!!!  Well, most of the reason I haven't posted is .. not much new to tell .... same ol' same ol' .... I miss you all so dearly!  I knew I'd be lonely and miss my kids and all my Dear Sweet Friends .. but I never would of imagined it to be this tough!

My life consists of waking up at 5:45 (on a good day!) ... going to work ... coming home to an empty, lonely apartment ... chatting on line with a few new friends (and a few old ones) ... watching TV till  I fall asleep between midnight and 1am ... waking up at 5:45 and doing it all over again!  And when I do get days off ... it's the same except for the going to work part ... hehehe :)

But .... I have met a few new friends ... and have even gone to dinner with a few ... played some pool ... watched some movies ... and chatted till the wee hours of the am with a few!  Yea ... we all know how I like to chat!!!  I'm still eagerly awaiting a willing participant to go to Busch Gardens and go on the roller coasters with me ... especially SheiKra ... now that it's floorless!  I almost got to go today ... with a gal from work ... but I got called into work and didn't get my day off as scheduled ... imagine that!   Maybe it's just not meant for me to go yet!!!  Patience ... Iago ...Patience!   hehehe .... yeah right!!!  Yes, the Lord is still working on my patience issue! I sure wish He'd hurry up with that one :) 

For those of you who continue to pray for me ... please keep praying!  I have my days ... and they are getting better EVERY day!!! I am definitely healing ... and I know it's because of my prayer warrior friends! You guys ROCK!!! Thanks :)  Just an FYI ... my headache has been maxed out again for the past 2 days ... and I'm sure it's stressed related ... it's been a hard 2 weeks ... and this next week or two are proving to be just as intense! If the Lord puts me on your heart ... please feel free to lift me up for strength, wisdom and COMFORT!  I have to admit .. I am certainly not looking forward to the holidays ... all alone!!!!!!!!!!! (that could be a big part of my stress ... but certainly not the only ... but the Lord knows the details!)

A tidbit of good news ... I finally get a Sunday off ... but I have no clue which church to go to yet!  I'm praying the Lord with guide me to where He wants me!!!  At this point ... almost anywhere sounds wonderful!  I can't even remember the last time I went this long without going to chuch ... let alone being a part of one!!!

I love ya all and miss you like crazy .... and it tickles my heart that some of you even miss me ... and my Whoo Hoo :) 

Okay ... so no big news YET!  I am still job hunting and looking for a permanent place to live!  I have to admit one of my biggest struggles right now is being BORED!!!  Once the regular "scheduled" work day/week ends, I have to wait till the next day to attempt to follow any new leads - I exhaust everything possible daily! I have put on so many miles on my car ... and that's just since getting here!

Yes, I do miss the kids ... but I've talked to the girls almost daily so far!  I miss the Sweet hugs and kisses from Kylee - my little Sweetness!  I get to talk to her, and she tries to find me, eats the phone and yesterday, hugged the phone!

So I went in search of church today!! Yikes - the only "Bible" church in the area is not even remotely close to a score worth writing down.  A bunch of stuffy people in suit coats and hymns that could gag the dead. I was very tempted to start checking pulses to see if anyone there was alive!  I haven't felt that stifled in church since my Catholic days!  Guess I won't be going back there for a second opinion!  Today was their "monthly potluck lunch" and I, yes, me, did NOT stay.  Not only did I not have a desire to stay, I couldn't beat feet fast enough.  To think ... I chose total bordom in my "efficiency" to spending time fellowshipping!  Now that's bad!  I miss Valley Bible BIG TIME!!!

Well, keep me in your prayers that something comes up soon in the line of a job and a place to live!  I do have a few possilbe leads... just waiting on the final word!  Then you all will have a place to come visit!!! :)  I won't have regular access to internet until I get into a place and get my computer out of storage!  For now ... I am painstakingly using the Library once a day to check my email and to check on job opportunities! 

Take care ... and remember to call me on my cell if you feel like chatting!  I would love the opportunity to hear all of your voices!

Until next time! :)

I'm Movin' On!!!! :)

Hello everyone out there in Xanga world!!!  So it's true ... I'm movin' on and movin' to Florida!!!  I am headed to the unknown world of Starting Over ... and I will land in Tampa, Florida!

The girls (all 3 of them ... Tiffany, Machelle & Kylee) will escort me down.  As the plan goes for now... we leave here either the afternoon of May 16th or the mornin' of the 17th.  We hope to reach Tampa on the 19th or 20th!  Get me settled into a place - hopefully I can nail that one down this weekend!  And then the girls will fly back to GJ on the 27th!  This is a totally relying and trusting in the Lord to provide kinda thing!

It all happened rather quickly, but nonetheless ... I have a peace from the Lord that I haven't had in a long time - like 18 months!!!  I need to start my life over with a fresh new attitude and let the Lord continue to heal my heart, mind, body and soul!  If He brings me back to GJ to stay - it will be with a new attitude and a new outlook on life!!

Why Florida?  Why Tampa?  Hhmmm..... not quite sure!  I've wanted to move to Florida since returning stateside 3 1/2 years ago.  I thought I wanted to go to Orlando ... but as it turns out ... that would not suffice the desire I have in this Starting Over move!  Then I thought ... I'll move to my favorite place in Florida ... St. Pete!  But when I went there to visit, last month, I realized that if I move to a "favorite place", it would no longer hold that sense of awe it holds as a "favorite" place to visit!  But Tampa  ... is sorta in the middle of both these places and I can visit either of them as I so wish!  I am so hoping and praying to finally get to go to a Nascar Race in Daytona too!!! (a long time (like 28 years) desire that has never even been an option for me before!!!)  After checking the areas out on the web, I realized there are more opportunites in Tampa any way ... cheap housing and lots of job opportunities!!!  Oh yeah, gotta land a job, too :)  Please ... Pray for me :)

Things have been quite hectic around here lately... With Machelle, Tom & Kylee moving out of their apartment and into their new home ... the announcement of Tipper's Engagement ... Jeff moving to California ... and now my adventure off to Florida ... it has been anything less than crazy!! :)  Just waiting to see what Chris might have up his sleeve???  So many new & exciting changes in the Warga family!  The Lord sure moves in mysterious ways :)

Well, I hope to be more diligent about updating this site more often ... since I will have sooooo much time on my hands ... hahaha ... yeah right!  Anyone who knows me, knows I don't just sit around and "do nothing" or "hang out" - always involved with some ministry of some sort :)  

I am going to a foreign land where I know No One and No One knows me!  Sorta scary, exciting, adventurous, invigorating, and all the other "feelings" all tangled together!  I am stepping out in a Leap of Faith like never before!  The only other time in my life I ever did anything so scary and adventurous, by myself, was when I joined the Navy - 26 years ago!  Then ... I had never been away from home for more than 8 weeks, never been on a plane before, never had the sense of unknownium, never had to rely totally on myself before .... hhhmmmm.... yep ... got all those same feelings again (except the flying part - done lots of that!!!) and then some, as I did when I set out to start my life for the First time, oh so long ago.  Never would of dreamed OR desired to ever have to do it again .. but I find myself here doing it!

Look Out Florida ... Here I Come :)  Please do keep me in your prayers!  Come visit me :o)

I will keep my Colorado cell phone number for the time being ... until it becomes necessary for me to change it or I decide to make Florida my permanent home.  I have Verizon as my provider, so all you Verizon friends ... we get to chat for free!  I am even getting pretty good at text messaging :)  You can always contact me here on Xanga or by my Hotmail - I check it often, like several times a day :)  And I have found IM to be my new Friend!  I like the instant reply!!!  And the Webcam has proven to be a great way to be able to see my wonderful friends - even though there are so many miles between us!  The Webcam will be my saving grace for watching Kylee grow and learn all the new things her little life will soon be encountering - like sitting up, teeth, crawling, walking, talking and being able to see her beautiful smile EVERY day!  I prefer Yahoo IM, but I do use my Hotmail one, too.  I am not very fond of AOL's IM, but if that is your pleasure, I'll use it.  If you are interested in IMing with me, let me know, and I'll give ya my screen name!  I plan to keep in better touch - since all my friends are scattered around the world ... the internet has become very crucial in my life!  Almost consuming!

I am not moving with any expectations.  This is definitely a time for healing and refreshing and to see what the Lord wants me to do next!  I am not putting any limits on this adventure.  If is turns out to be a temporary move, so be it!  I figure I will take it 6 months at a time - unless the Lord proves otherwise!  I hope to be back in GJ for Christmas and Kylee's 1st Birthday, and I will definitely be back for Tipper's Wedding - summer of 2008!!!!  Who knows ... by next year I may be moving on to yet another adventure!!!  I'm taking bare minimum with me ... until I know if this will be long term or not!  Gave lots of stuff to the kids, stored some, and am selling the rest!  Some memories will be cherished, but many more will be left where they belong - in the past!

Keep in touch :)  My friends are what have helped me to get through this much so far, and I pray I can always count on them to be there for me - even if just for prayer!  I am here for anyone who might need me.  I've learned many a hard lesson - and I know there are many more to come, but I do believe that we go through struggles so we can encourage others out in their time of need!  I've even been dubbed the "cheerleader" at church, for my encouraging "Woo Hoo"!  There's lots of the FUN "me" coming back out that has been stifled for so long!  I guess the Lord has really broken down some tuff walls! He has shown me that I am truly NOT as bad a person as I have been so mistakenly convinced of.  Thankfully, He has been chipping away at many insecurities, bitterness and hurt feelings ... and He's put the joy back in my heart and the smile back on my face ... and thanks to many "old" friends that I've been re-connected with - the laughter back in my life!!!  Thank You Jesus!!!  I love to laugh - it is soooo healing and it sure beats crying any day!

Wow!!! This is long - I guess that's what happens when ya only update every once in a bazillion months! :)

Wow!  It has been toooooo long since my last entry!  Sorry! 

I'm doing good!  I'm working at our church, Valley Bible Church, full time now!   Still the janitor - 1/4 time - and am now the secretary 3/4 time!  I love working there - and I still serve in many other capacities there too :) 

I still am the leader of the AWANA T&T Girls - I have on average 12 girls a week!  The exciting part is that about 8 of them are regulars!  I call them my die-hards!  They come right from sports practices - sometimes finishing their dinner before we get started! I love watching them grow in the Lord!  Some come from churched families, but many do not!  It's great to see them memorize and learn the Word! Some kids start out not being able to pronounce some of the books of the Bible, but soon learn that it is Philippians not the Philipines or Philidalphia!  Or Psalms not Pasams or First John not One John!  It is such a wonderful feeling to know that they are taking their handbooks home and working on them with their families!  Some kids start the year out with not even one Bible in their home and end the year with at least each child with one!!!  I love to work with these wonderful kids!  Besides, I get to let the little kid in me out and no one looks at me like I got two heads!  Or that I "need to grow up and act my age" - Yikes!  That'd be horrible!  I love running around, cheering, having fun, spreading the Lord's love and just goofing around with the kids - my girls and the even the boys - especially those on my game line!  I think I've been blessed to have everyone at least one time on my game line - we switch them every few weeks or so when the teams get top heavy - from all the new kids!

Well, I'm off to Tampa in a couple of weeks!  It'll be a short trip filled with lots of friend time!  I'm meeting an old friend from our childhood and her family!  Then I will meet up with at least one guy if not two from school!  We have recently been re-connected and why not take advantage of being in the same area at the same time!  It should be a hoot!  I have recently been back in contact with several old friends!  And have actually gotten visits or visited them!  It has simply been a hoot and a half and wonderful to the healing of my heart to know that I can pick up with old friendship right where we left off - no pretences or fear of being myself!  They knew me then, and I've only improved  :)  They don't judge and they encourage me!  For the most part, most have come to know the Lord as their personal Lord and Savior since high school!  That blesses my heart like nothing else!  I love to share about the Lord in our lives!

Yes, I know...it's been too long since my last post - AGAIN!  Hey, what can I say, life is full of unexpected surprises that seem to be occupying my time - THANK GOD!  Time is quickly passing by, and that is a good thing!

Tipper, her boyfriend, Jered, and I are presently in New York!  My last visit was 6 years ago and Tipper's was 12 years ago!  Everything is so different - the area has grown so much. My nieces and nephews are growin' up too quick.  Time with my bros so far has been great - I can honestly say that it is going to be hard to leave this time.  Usually, 3 days is more than enough for me with my family, but not this time!

We went to the Orange County Fair our first day here, Tuesday - first time I got to go to the fair in 22 years!  We went shopping at an "Outlet Town" on Wednesday - got lots of stuff for so little money - it was great!  We went to New York City yesterday, Thursday.  Wow! What a day - Central Park Zoo, The Empire State Building, Rockefeller Center, Subway rides, Lunch at Mars 2112, Stroll down Broadway, walking, walking, and lots more walking!  We ran out of time to go to the Statue of Liberty and Coney Island, but it was overcast most of the day and it started raining soon after we picked our car back up - Thank you Lord for letting us stay dry - well, besides the horrible humidity!

Today we are off to the Water Park, dinner at my brother, Brian's Pizzaria - a family tradition on Friday evening to all meet there for PIZZA! We had a pizza for dinner our first night here and have been craving it ever since!  YEAH for NY Pizza again!

Tomorrow - Saturday - we are off to the races!  Dirt Stock Cars, for those who may be questioning what kind of races!  We are so excited to see my brother Chuck race again - We haven't seen him race in 12 years!  We will spend the mornin' and early afternoon with my brothers and their families, but then we'll be at the race track the rest of the night!

Sunday we will go to church with my girlfirend, Tammy, and see some old school friends - YEAH!  Then we will hit the road again for our 30 hour road trip back to Colorado!  Two long days or like coming here, one late start, one long day, and one easy day!

Chat again soon - Lord Willing!